Paisley Autumn Claire Krueger

Friday night right before I went to bed I felt a couple very mild contractions. They were not at all painful and I didn't think much of it before going to bed.

On Saturday morning I woke up around 9 and got ready to head over to my mom and dad's house. My sisters and their kids were going to all get together for some playtime and lunch since it had been a few weeks since we'd all been able to get together. Throughout the time there I was having contractions off and on, but again they were not painful and were not coming regularly; eventually I just got used to feeling them and soon didn't notice they kept coming. Around 1 we left to go home and put Natalie down for her nap. She ended up sleeping for only an hour, and after trying to get her to go back to sleep I finally gave up and we went outside to play for awhile. Andy had been out roto-tilling the new dirt we had spread around the edges of the new driveway all morning. While we played awhile I realized that the contractions were not going away and I started to think "maaaaaaaybe, just maybe??"....I guess you could say my nesting instinct kicked in because I suddenly got the desire to get the last of the baby stuff organized, do some laundry, clean the kitchen, and Natalie and I baked some pumpkin bread and muffins. Eventually we ate supper, and then Andy took Natalie upstairs to give her her bath. I sat down on the couch and decided to start timing my contractions. For 2.5 hours I timed them and they were about 7-9 minutes apart. They were not getting any stronger, and I was actually surprised to see that they were coming pretty regularly. I bet if I had paid attention to them all day I'd have noticed they were coming pretty regularly for hours, but alas I did not. Again, they still were not very painful. Andy got Natalie to go to bed and we talked about what our plan would be should this actually be the real thing. I called my mom and put her on notice (she'd be taking the dog and Natalie when it was time). Andy got the guest bedroom set up for him to sleep in--I wanted him to get some good rest just in case we had to leave in the middle of the night. My plan was that I'd go to bed and see what happened, I was very hopeful that I'd make it until the morning. At 10:00 I went to bed, still having contractions 7-9 minutes apart. I was able to sleep a little bit here and there, but was awake most of the time. At 12:20 I must have dozed off because I woke up to a pretty painful contraction. I got the timer out again and they were coming about every 3-4 minutes. I dinked around for a bit and then at 1 decided that I should call the midwife. I got ahold of her right away and she said it sounded like the real thing, and I should think about heading in within the next hour. By this point I was having a hard time talking through the contractions. I called my mom to let her know we'd be over in about 45 minutes, after I got Andy up and we got everything packed. I went in and woke him up from a dead sleep and we started gathering the last of our stuff. I realized that I hadn't packed a bag for Natalie so I threw some clean clothes in a bag that happened to be in our bedroom from doing laundry earlier in the day. Andy got everything in the car and I went down to wait for him to grab Natalie. Once we got in the car I realized that yes, I was in labor. I think this was the first time I was able to admit to myself that it was the real deal. I'd been so afraid of not going into labor on my own and having to be induced again that I was fully expecting the contractions to fizzle out to nothing. The drive was NOT FUN!!! I was glad that it was the middle of the night and the roads were not busy. We dropped Natalie and the dog off and headed into town. At the last stoplight we pulled up to there were no other cars around, but the light was red. And it wasn't turning. So we went through it.

We got to the hospital around 2 and they hooked me up to the monitors for an NST. Contractions were still 2-4 minutes apart and getting stronger. I was still handling them well, but by this point I could not talk or move during them. The nurse checked me and said I was 4-5 centimeters dilated and 80% effaced. About 2:45 they moved us to a birthing room and the midwife arrived. I sat on the edge of the bed answering a million questions while they filled up the tub. Around 3:15 I finished the Q & A session and was able to get in the bathtub. It felt a lot better to be in there, but I wouldn't say that it was "like an epidural", or that I felt "immediate relief". For me it more just took the edge off. It was still painful, but I could handle it. It felt very very nice to be in the hot water. My midwife was in and out as was one nurse. I could hear them getting the room ready for a baby and again, I just couldn't believe it--it was actually happening! I had a chat with Andy--told him to not leave me and that I needed him (haha, like he was gonna go anywhere! I don't know why I thought I had to tell that to him!). He prayed for us and that's pretty much exactly what I needed, he knows me so well! After that, the contractions really got harder and I started to wonder how much of this I could take. I knew that if this lasted for hours upon hours that I would be asking for an epidural, and I told my midwife that. She decided that it would be a good time to check me again, and surprise! I was at 8! That did give me hope because I kinda knew that it was too late for anything, and that the end was near. I felt like I COULD do this, and that compared to the contractions I felt with Natalie, this was total do-able. Not long after she checked me, maybe 2-3 contractions later I suddenly jumped and flailed in pain--I felt like I was losing control of my body, which was the first time something like that had happened during this labor (I pretty much felt that way through my entire labor with Natalie). I knew I had to pull it together--I can't let that happen again and if I do I'm surely going to fail. I had to keep reminding myself to relax, let my body do what it wants to and that this will soon be over. I felt like I had to push, but I could not get a good grip on anything in the tub--I kept floating around and losing my grip so I asked if I could get out. I want to say that this was around 4:00. The nurse wrapped a hot blanket around me and I got into bed. Almost as soon as I got there I felt the urge to push again. Out of nowhere another nurse appeared. On the next contraction, when I felt like I had to, I gave a half-hearted push (this is when my water broke) and I remember Andy saying "her head's right there--our baby is coming honey!!" THAT totally made me want to push and push hard. I wanted this kid out, I wanted that awful feeling to go away and so on the next contraction I pushed. HARD. And again. And then....she was out!! 4:15am. They laid her on me, she cried and Andy cut the cord. I could not believe how little she was!! At my appointment 3 days earlier the midwife guessed she was probably around 8lbs, but when they weighed her she was just 6lbs 6oz.

I held her for a bit and then she went to the warmer with Andy and they checked her out, got her cleaned up and I pushed out the placenta. I ended up with 2 teeny tears which required a stitch each. She gave me a shot of something for the stitches, which was the only drug that I had. As she stitched me up I asked when we could go home. I said as soon as possible and she said that shouldn't be a problem, we should be able to be out in a few hours. Normally they'd move us to a postpartum room but since we were leaving soon they just kept us where we were--Birthing Room #2. By 4:45 everything was cleaned up and the nurses and midwife were gone. I think we just sat there in shock. I'm still in shock!! We had a bunch of visitors--my mom and dad came with Natalie, Andy's parents, Holly and Anika and Jess and Nadia all stopped by, and we were out the door headed home at 4:45 that afternoon.

I can't believe I went into labor on my own. I can't believe I didn't have any drugs. I can't believe I DID IT!! It was the complete and total opposite of Natalie's birth--it's everything I had ever hoped for. I feel so extremely blessed!!!!

3 years old!!

Natalie's 3-year photos!! Such a big girl :)

Well hello there!

My poor neglected blog!! I seem to have forgotten about you....let's see if we can play catch-up quick, shall we?

Back on June 18th Natalie turned the big 3! We had a Garden Fairy theme, which was so much fun to decorate and prepare for. She had a blast!!


About a week before her third birthday I finally broke down and brought her in for her first haircut. She did very well and didn't move a muscle the entire time (probably helped that they had a little TV with "Cars" playing!).


We made our way up to the lake home for a second trip (first being Memorial Day weekend) over the Fourth of July and it was HOT!! There is no air conditioning up there so it can get pretty bad, but I suppose that's part of the charm of being at the lake home. My sister and her family were up there as well (my brother-in-law's grandparents have a house on the neighboring lake), so we all met up to go mini-golfing and go-karting one morning. The rest of the weekend was spent trying to keep cool with lots of swimming and boating.





The entire month of July we fried. We had a couple of weeks of 90+* weather and I can tell you that was not much fun for this pregnant lady. I tried very very hard not to complain about it since I'd much prefer the heat to the bitter cold, but it was hard because of being pregnant. I had high hopes of getting a membership to the local swimming pool because we had so much fun with it last year, but I couldn't manage because it was so hot! We did make it to the beach a couple times, and Andy took Natalie to swimming lessons at the local community center. We also got a nice pool for the back yard which we got a lot of use out of.


For me, one of the highlights of our summer was getting our driveway paved. We had planned on having it done this summer, but then back in June my car went to pots and we decided that we should just get a new (to us) one. (I'm so lucky, now I get to drive an SUV! I didn't think I'd love it as much as I do, but the space is so super nice!) With that extra-large expense we weren't sure if we should go for the driveway after all, but eventually decided that it was time. Now that we have a nice blacktopped driveway, we have lots of space for Natalie to ride on her little cars, color on with chalk and just play on. One of her favorite things to do is to wash her cars and play in buckets of bubbles and water. She'd stay entertained with 2 buckets, water and bubbles for hours!



When we lived over in St. Paul we were super close to the Como Zoo so we'd go there quite often. It has been over a year since we moved and we hadn't been back since, so we made it one of our goals for the summer to get out there again. Of course we picked the busiest day ever to go, but we still had a great time! The zoo is a fantastic size for small kids--we were able to see everything and by the time we got to the end Natalie was still going strong. There is a little amusement park attached to the zoo, so we stopped there before heading home. Natalie was so excited and proud to go on one of the rides all by herself for the first time ever.



Over the summer my grandma was diagnosed with Alzheimer's. A few weeks later she fell and broke a bone in her pelvis; my grandpa was unable to take care of her so she was placed in a nursing home. She's still there today and healing well, but the Alzheimer's is taking its toll on her and it doesn't look like she'll be going home :( We haven't been able to make it up there to visit her so we made her a get-well card with a photo:


A couple other photos just for fun and because they're so cute :)

it's baby time!

On January 20th 2011 I had a flash back to September 25, 2007. Just seconds after I peed on that little white stick two pink lines popped up. Both times my first thought was "oh wow, yay!", which quickly turned to "oh my gosh, what did we just do? i can't do this, take it back, take it back!"

We're going to have another baby! Natalie is going to be a big sister!

This time around has been much harder than when I was pregnant with Natalie. Now at 13 weeks I'm feeling much better, but the day that I hit 6 weeks until 11.5ish weeks I wanted to curl up and die. I'm very much hoping that I will be able to enjoy the rest of this pregnancy since chances are this will be the last time I experience it.

Estimated due date is October second, but given my history this baby will likely be born around my birthday which is the 15th (Natalie was 18 days late). I'm hoping things go better this time around but at least I'm prepared to be pregnant for like 3 and a half years!

Wintertime

Wintertime is my lametime. I don't enjoy it very much, and I'm looking forward to Spring like I never have before!


It just can't come soon enough...but we did get a glimpse of it last week--a few days of 40 degree weather, it felt like Heaven! We were even able to go for walks. Walks! It was really amazing to see the change in everyones attitudes, especially Natalies. She was so very happy to be outside and it put her in the best mood.


We're very lucky to have had that weather because we're in the midst of a blizzard. I think it was God's way of reminding us that Spring will come, and winter will end...just not yet.

So what have we been up to this winter? Not a whole lot. I've been trying to keep us busy with activities during the week; Mondays Natalie and I go to Kindermusik or "Musnik School" as she calls it. Every other Tuesday, opposite Wednesday and every Thursday I have my sister's kids, which can get very interesting having 3 under the age of 3 to care for.


On our "free days" we like to go to the library and run other errands like Target, the bank, post office, etc. Sometimes we go visit Papa, or Auntie. Last week we visited Daddy at work which was fun too. Ideally we'd like to leave the house at least once a day, but that doesn't usually happen.


On days that we're stuck at home we fill our time with playing in clubhouses (we have three. three. tents (and a tunnel) set up in the bedroom), reading books, doing puzzles, coloring, playing with babies and oh so much more! This morning we made play doh out of cornstarch, baking soda and water.

The first day of Spring is March 21, which is one month from today. And since February is such a short month, that means only 27 days! There is an end in sight!!!

merry christmas!

christmasized!

Back in the day it used to take me an afternoon to put the tree up, decorate it and the house. New (much larger) house + a 2.5 year old = an entire week to get the job done. I tried to get Natalie to help with decorating the tree but she was completely uninterested. Maybe next year.